**disclaimer**
If you are one of my "real life" friends, please read with caution.
You've been warned.
Every now and again I get this feeling.
A feeling that I hate.
A feeling that turns me into the jealous type.
A feeling I wish I could shake.
I've grown to learn it's unshakable.
It's just who I am.
This feeling takes me back to my high school days.
When I wasn't "cool" enough;
I wasn't "thin" enough;
I wasn't part of the "in" crowd.
I was always left out.
You would think the "feelings" would go away with age.
Yeah, apparently they don't.
I have a pretty BIG group of friends.
And when it comes to friendship I like to think that I'm as LOYAL as they come.
I like to make sure that EVERYONE is included when outings happen.
If I'm going to a game, a bar, a concert I always invite.
I.ALWAYS.INVITE.So why is it that I'm ALWAYS left out?
Yes, I know if you're going out on a "school" night I will likely not join in.
But the invite, that's all I'm asking for.
One little phone call or text saying "Hey we're going to (fill in the blank), you want to come?"
Is that too much to ask?
Sure, I may be over-reacting.
But it's not a one time feeling.
It happens all the time.
And I'm at the point where I just want to say to hell with it.
If you want to see me, you want me to go out, then you're going to have to call me.
I'm done with calling and asking what the plans are.
Is this a wrong feeling?
Should I just see a therapist and get over it?
Will medication be involved?
**I realize I may regret posting this, but they're my feelings and I'm posting anyways.** 